Destruction
what i meant to say is my mind is not here ,what i meant to say is i’m lost out here
i’m crashing hard leaving trails of destruction
what if life is it all one big dream …looking down… can i fly? Because if this a huge dream I want to start over
fields of lost memories
broken dreams
i’m bleeding inside and no one sees and i don’t dare say it
in time
no significance …no time
i write ,think,believe that this blood will be gone ,stop destroying me
although i keep on resisting i keep seeing things in slow motion
I choke…get caught up….give me wings…set me free
when did this become my fate …..
they say you have a choice
where do I go to ask for another mind and body?
because its some fucked up shit….tell me again that we have a choice….maybe one day you will suffer too given a “choice”
and then tell me you understand because you don’t, fuck you if you think life is as easy as flipping a switch
end emotion
begin again
lost love i miss you …..more in my dreams
you live always near me,in my mind you surround me, in my heart you live in me
twin flames …we will fly again
this is the only fate i believe in ..its you
you know i said its true ,i do feel it too
I CAN FEEL IT ALL SEE IT ALL Believe in love because I’ll never lose you to love
ALWAYS in me…I feed you even when I am not in sight
realign….begin again…it will be so
This entry is sporadic and abstract and very human. I will not destroy any emotion because it does not please someone. I wish with all my strength that I can muster inside that things would be different . I wish. Please continue to believe in me. Life is short. I want to live in this moment. Although I want to stop time. I want to grow wings and fly so far away.I want to live in a dream where you live.
I do not want to be in pain. I am devoted to my disease trying to feed my endometriosis…scratch that I KILLING IT! I am winning this war! Faith…I prayed tonight, not to a god or “the god”, no -to the universe-YELLING- release me! Free me. Feed me. Give me life.
When do I get to decide-don’t answer that.
Feed me your love……………………………………………………………………………………..
Still Alive-Always because of love.
Expressions from within
unfurl tendrils
Ever to seek, twining
through the world without.
Found this when googling Endometriosis, and Louise Hay – http://www.drlibby.com/womens-health/endometriosis-symptoms-treatment/
Also, I wanted to drop by with a special gift to say thanks for following my blog for so long! http://wildersoul.wordpress.com/free-gift/
Kia ora!
Anasera
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